I have been thinking too much about my wedding lately. I need to remove this thinking cap before I permanently lose all my hair *gasps!* It dawned upon me that despite the dreamy illusion of wanting a grand, fairy tale wedding, I have to reluctantly set my feet to ground zero and snap back to reality. Earth to Mizzy.

Without a doubt, it is every girl's dream to have a wedding to remember. But then again, every girl will remember her wedding day, won't she? And this brings me to my point. I could engage the best services in town but the better they are, the more complacent they will be, making the best services not exactly the best anymore. I could invite half of Singapore to my wedding, but I will miss the chance to have quality time with the people who mattered most on my most important day. I could hold a lavish, extravagant wedding with all the works thrown in at the glitziest hotel in town, but I will be penniless by the end of it.

These are the things that swim in my head lately.

I'm trying to strike a balance here. I want a beautiful wedding. But beautiful to me is something pleasant & wonderful to my eyes, my heart, my soul and of course, on a reality jerking note, my pocket. I have a sense of respect & quiet admiration for brides who, despite their fame and apparent opulence, held low-key weddings, shared with loved ones & close friends. And I strive to be like them.

Ok, I admit that I am selfish cos I want the best of both worlds. I wish to have a nice wedding but I also desire the best for my life after the wedding. To me, this overshadows even the biggest, grandest, most lavish wedding. And this is where I need to strike a balance, both mentally & financially.

There won't be confetti throwing, no over-indulgence in wedding decor & settings, no 10 carat diamond rings and certainly no glam wedding at some glitzy hotel. I have stepped on solid ground. I can make do with a simple wedding. But hey, like any other minah kahwin-kahwin, I still want a wedding which will leave me dizzy with exhilaration! And i oh so want that decor setting. Which one? You shall see!