Attended my marriage prep course last weekend. Just hours before the course commenced, i had pangs of uncertainty. I was plagued with scary thoughts. Do i really want to start a family? Am i ready for marriage and subjugate my life to a man whom i were to call my husband? Am i mentally prepared to face the challenges? Frankly, even after listening to stories from friends who had gone through it, I still don't know what to expect from the course. Will it eventually discourage both wan & me to embark on this voyage called marriage?

But i went, i listened and i learnt.

Most of the topics taught so far were predictable although i did learn some new things. But what was valuable to me was the tips and advices given by the speakers on overcoming the differences. The kind of things that i want wan to listen to. The kind of advices that i want to learn so that i could work on my flaws. Most of the cited examples come from real experiences, some from the files of Syariah court.

After 2 days of the course, the pangs of uncertainty i felt prior to the course vanished. I realized that I am ready afterall. I am ready to face the bumpy road ahead. I am ready to be his wife. I am ready to accept and tolerate his flaws, his shortcomings ... him. When i glanced across the room where wan was sitting, I couldnt help feeling a sense of pride. I felt proud seeing him sitting there, listening attentively. And yes, i can see him as my husband, InsyaAllah... And you know what? From the SMS he sent me that same night, he feels the same way too. I am hanging onto every word he sent because it's just too sweet to forget! What did he write, you ask? I'm not telling ya!

We've got 2 more days to go!